After a long day, I sit down and wonder why I've turned to become who I am right now. Sigh... I can really be such a horrible person. Regret only after something's done. Once/twice/thrice/a million times ....... I wonder when it's time I learn and start considering the consequences before acting. I need to be more mature. I need to handle things well. I need to stop being so impulsive. I'm turning 19 this year, there's really no time to waste. I wonder why human beings are never satisfied with themselves. Take me for example, I never seem to feel slim enough, pretty enough, smart enough, hardworking enough and sometimes I wonder why I wasn't born with all the luxuries. Then again as long as one's happy I guess that's all it takes to sum up a fulfilling life. I really love my family, my friends and most of all, Cavan who has been there for me always. To my Baby, even though I may appear very annoyed by what you do at times, just to let you know you really mean alot to me. Sorry for being such a monster... :( I promise i'll put in effort to make this relationship work.

Weh weh enough of emo crap. Blooody moodswings. Tomorrow will be a brighter day.